Thursday, August 6, 2009

Motives

We are all motivated by different emotions. Anger, fear, sadness, jealousy, greed, etc. It is amazing how we react to all these different emotions.

I am tired and sad tonight. We were woken at 3am to be told one of our friends had taken her life. We are so terribly sad for her husband and family. It breaks my heart that she felt like she was in a place so bad that she couldn't reach out to any of us. That none of knew that she was hurting so badly or struggling with things we were not aware of.

We dont have all of the horrible details since they live out of state, but we are praying for peace for all those that loved her. Loss is so difficult to live with. It tears you apart bit by bit, you are never the same. With situations like this, the guilt that you leave for those left behind is an emotion that can never be resolved. You have left the what if's and the why's that can never be answered.

Use whatever resources you have in your life. You are loved by more people than you can ever imagine. Reach out, somebody wants to help you and be that shoulder for you.

Death, a permanent solution for a temporary problem. Reach out, love your neighbor, love each other.

5 comments:

Lee-Ellen said...

my heart goes out to you dani and your friend's family. my dad took his life when i was in high school and the what ifs and whys still haunt me all these years later. lots of prayers being said

Lorza said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I will say prayers for her husband.

here from Mel's LFCA

Melis.sa said...

I am so, so sorry.

I lost a friend to suicide last year, he was 29, and it was a week after a miscarriage.

If you want to talk at all, I'm here...


((HUGS))

Aunt Becky said...

I lost a friend to suicide as well and it breaks me up to even think about it. I'm so sorry for your loss. So, so sorry.

Sending love and prayers.

Hillary said...

I am so sorry. This is heartbreaking and there are no words to really be said....but I said a prayer for you.

Our friends lost their son to suicide 4 years ago. It is tragic.

((((hugs))))

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