Sunday sucked again. For the 2nd year in a row, my husband had to work. I would have gone home to be with my mom had we had a little more notice, but that isn't how it works with police officers.
I decided to stain the deck on my screened in porch. It took me ALL day. I had Christian music playing and some soul searching with lots of conversations with GOD.
Regardless of whether I will have more children either physically or adopted, I am STILL Walker's mom. Sometimes it hurts so badly knowing that I don't get to parent him here on earth, that I miss the memories we had on our only Mothers Day together.
Today the pain has subsided from Sunday and I am so happy that I am still his mom.
I LOVE YOU WALKER, your mommy misses you.
XOXOXOXO
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
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3 comments:
I cannot even imagine what you're going through.
~~~HUGS~~~
hugs!!
Sending you many hugs. I'm so very sorry for the loss of walker and I wish you didn't have to experience the pain.
(((HUGS)))
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