Wednesday, May 13, 2009

I am still Walker's Mom

Sunday sucked again. For the 2nd year in a row, my husband had to work. I would have gone home to be with my mom had we had a little more notice, but that isn't how it works with police officers.

I decided to stain the deck on my screened in porch. It took me ALL day. I had Christian music playing and some soul searching with lots of conversations with GOD.

Regardless of whether I will have more children either physically or adopted, I am STILL Walker's mom. Sometimes it hurts so badly knowing that I don't get to parent him here on earth, that I miss the memories we had on our only Mothers Day together.

Today the pain has subsided from Sunday and I am so happy that I am still his mom.

I LOVE YOU WALKER, your mommy misses you.


I Believe in Miracles said...

I cannot even imagine what you're going through.

Lee-Ellen said...


We have Angel Wings said...

Sending you many hugs. I'm so very sorry for the loss of walker and I wish you didn't have to experience the pain.